Posts Tagged ‘pornography’

Dusting off the old blog

Sunday, January 25th, 2009

Scraping off what appears to be weeks worth of dust on my blog, I am now realizing it’s been a month since I’ve posted. Who knows who still reads here that used to. Thought that I would at least throw out an update that deserves praise and rejoicing.

Today was DAY 95 of my fast and Friday will be DAY 100!!

I cannot believe it has been that long. I have only been physically tempted twice in that span of time, once 40 days in, the next after another 40 days. Hmm… interesting… We’ll see what day 120 brings haha.

I am so thrilled by this and plan on making 2009 my first porn and sex-addiction free year :) Can’t wait to see what God will bring from this!! (more…)

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Day 40 of My Fast

Saturday, November 29th, 2008

So I was counting days the other day and future counting to 40 and realized that my birthday, November 30th, will be day 40 for me of my pornography fast!!

How cool!

I was talking with a friend and he was mentioning how powerful the concept of 40 days is in the bible. I’ve been wondering for years what it would be like to go this long without pornography and finally I’m going down that road and I am fully expecting God to show up on day 40 somehow and there after. Be praying for that for me please :) .

He has absolutely shown me the strength in His word to beat this addiction and shown me the purity in women that I have desperately wanted for so long. I’m excited to see where God takes me now that I am almost 40 days into what should become a lifetime fast. Thanks so much for all your prayers and support!

And for those that have read here that do struggle with it, believe me when I say that anything is possible with prayer and belief that God can purify and help you through an addiction like this!!

Amen! 

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Interesting Post I Stumbled Upon

Sunday, October 12th, 2008

Reading one of the many blogs (Man of Depravity) that I read each day, he post his usual foruitous bouncing post that contained a dozen or so links to other sites that he found interesting. One was a really good post on pornography and the lies that we feed into sometimes.

Check it out!

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When We Give (him) Access

Wednesday, October 1st, 2008

I awake early, feeling somewhat refreshed. Rolling over, tangled in my sheets, I notice the time was 6:42am. Awesome – more time to sleep. Daylight creeps into my room, erasing the shadows of nighttime from my walls. I fall back asleep.

9:56am… I overslept and won’t be getting to class on time or rather at all. Climbing out of bed and opening my door, I am suddenly aware of an eerily cold and quiet apartment. Something is not right. My stomach growls. Apparently, I’m hungry and that is what is wrong in my apartment.

The smell of cinnamin fills the room as cinnamin rolls finish cooking. The oven beeps, signalling that breakfast is ready. Sitting on my couch with a plate of cinnamin rolls, I debate whether or not T.V. or scripture is a better morning wake-up routine. Scripture wins.

Opening my bible, I find Proverbs 29. 

A man who remains stiff-necked after many rebukes will suddenly be destroyed—without remedy.

Whoa… its going to be one of those quiet times with slaps in the face from God. Excellent… (more…)

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What We Think We Are Owed

Saturday, September 20th, 2008

I’ve been hanging out with and talking alot with a friend of mine. We’ve simply been sharing life together and challenging each other. In only a few months, we’ve had a couple years worth of conversations and have been simply an out for each other in dealing with our struggles.

I am fascinated with this and have been really enjoying it because I have talked with her about struggles that are still very real and painful. I was surprised when I brought this subject up that I started getting choked up, having a hard time explaining my struggles.

My friend asked me the big question: (more…)

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I am…

Sunday, April 27th, 2008

This weekend was amazing for me.

Friday morning I had hands down the best massage I have ever gotten by a woman who specializes in myofascial massages. She incorporated it into the standard Swedish massage and wow did it help out my back a lot. The last two weeks have been very painful for me as my back injury from Afghanistan really acted up and was bothering me non-stop, even to the point of tears at times. So this release from that was a blessing to say the least. :)

I worked yesterday as well which was slightly lame but it was outdoors so at least I got some sun. I’ve steadily moved my way up in the chain and am now in charge of scheduling, which yes is tedious, but allows me to show that I am serious about continuing to work there. I’m making a name for myself because I’m very good in the corporate world because a lot of the work involved focuses on flirting (appropriately of course :) )and shmoozing with upper management, which I do. So we’ll see where this job leads me. If nothing else, it’ll be a good contact for the future.

I also posted the other day and (more…)

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