Posts Tagged ‘thankful’

Back in the States!

Monday, July 27th, 2009

img_1729Well after 4 weeks of training, flying, and traveling all throughout Uganda, I am finally home! I cannot even begin to describe what just happened in my life. All I know is that there is a hornet’s nest that has been stirred up in my heart for the oppressed and seeking justice for them is now burned into my soul.

There are definitely going to be more entries and I will try to get them going based on the specific days they occurred to keep them short and fun to read so be sure to keep checking back.

Before we left Uganda, the missionary hosts we were with (amazing people!) challenged us to come up with 3 adjectives to describe our trip. One word each, no phrases, and something other than “awesome” and “good.” (By the way, if you have been on a trip or are going to, try this exercise with the group. Very beneficial!)

In doing this, I came up with CHALLENGING, INSPIRING, and REWARDING.

CHALLENGING — I have never in my life been challenged spiritually or emotionally like this before. Reading scripture about the injustice in the world, sitting down with children who have lost all brothers and sisters from war, families who have nothing but the clothes on their back. Spiritual attacks like nothing I have ever encountered. God rocked my world in Uganda and even before I left training camp in New Jersey. Quite the experience.

INSPIRING — What I saw in Kampala and Gulu has changed my life forever. It has inspired me to not “change the world” like any naive person might think about doing but rather suffer alongside these people, bring Christ’s love to them.

1 Peter 2:21 — To this you were called, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in His steps.

As a disciple of Jesus, we aren’t called to just sit by and worship Him every Sunday and pray to Him in the morning. We aren’t called to be nice to everyone we see and praise Him in the good times and bad. No – we are called to suffer like He did IN ADDITION to the above. To be with the poor and the oppressed, to be with the broken and needy, to shower the world with the love and hope of Jesus Christ.

REWARDING — Sitting with the children of St. Mary Kevin’s Orphanage and Boarding School and then hearing stories from displaced persons in Gulu was by far the most rewarding experience of my entire life. God opened my eyes spiritually and physically and in this my life has been changed and I believe my calling has been redefined to not just a “calling” but rather a biblical mandate. Seek justice for the oppressed, follow in His steps and suffer with others.

So be sure to check back and read about the experience. I will try and get stuff up ASAP!!

Thanks so much to all the prayers and support!! COULDN’T HAVE DONE IT WITHOUT YOU!!!

Now what….

Tuesday, December 23rd, 2008

Sharp pain rings through my head as my alarm clock goes off. Not only is there beeping but a throbbing headache snaps me awake. Groggy and incoherent, I stumble into the living room, attempting to wake myself up.

Ooooo chocolate donut. Yum.

Munching away, I stare at the abnormally large Christmas tree in my apartment. Where has time gone? Just yesterday I was starting to plan my lighting design for IMAGINE Christmas. Just yesterday I was starting a new semester at UConn. Just yesterday it was summer time.

I feel strangely at peace yet torn. What am I supposed to do now?

My whole schedule has revolved around IMAGINE Christmas over the last three months. Hundreds of hours have poured into creating my first lighting design and if I can be so bold, it was amazing. With the equipment I had and the budget I had, lights for IMAGINE Christmas were above and beyond anything I could have hoped for. Only once did the lights disappoint me and that was an error on my part missing a cue. (more…)

Looking for a Miracle?

Sunday, September 21st, 2008

After a recent conversation with a friend, I came to a powerful realization about miracles and how many there are happening in the world at this very moment. They are ongoing, never-ending, and still as breath-taking as the first miracle to ever take place.

Daily, we are surrounded by miracles that walk among us, touching our lives, interacting with us. Whether we know it or not, we will come across one every day.

Not following me? (more…)

Reflecting on What Is…and Is Not…

Thursday, August 14th, 2008

The last few weeks, without being too harsh, has been quite a trip. For those that read my post on my frustrations, you know what I was going through, and for good reason. To recap for those that missed out or don’t want to read about it, here goes.

  • UConn took away my financial aid because of bad grades from years ago that I am still trying to bring back up.
  • I have tuition bill that I cannot afford to pay.
  • I am still not in the Fine Arts program pursuing a Design/Tech for Theatre degree.
  • Tech responsibilities are piling on and things aren’t getting done.
  • Credit card bills are still high making saving money a hard thing to do.

As always, God changes our focus from the things to Him and allows to see how much is at stake in life and that these small things are minuscule in comparison. That is what I posted on above.

To recap some of the results from these issues:

  • Financial aid has been approved for me so I can afford school.
  • I am a part time student so the $1200 health insurance is not required so I don’t have to pay that part of the bill.
  • I just became eligible for a $34/month full medical with disability plan from Starbucks. Excellent!
  • Tech is slowly becoming a bit more organized. There will be big changes but for the good. And so far there may be two new members to the team soon.
  • Credit card bills are still high but slowly but surely coming down. My only concern is whether I can pay my tithe of one paycheck a month so as long as I can still do that, I am content with being in debt!
  • Apparently I was accepted into the Fine Arts program tentatively under condition of maintaining a B or greater average so with only two classes, that is doable.

I am only able to do so much but with the help of God and his ability to put all the pieces in the right place, I can do everything. This semester will be interesting to say the least with huge tech commitments at church, becoming Shift Supervisor at Starbucks, and, of course, school.

Pray for me!

Back to Home Sweet Home

Saturday, July 26th, 2008

After two weeks of military training, I’m finally back home. All in all, the training was not bad at all. The dreading and stress of what would ensue there was for nothing and it actually turned out to be quite refreshing for me to get away for a while.

I found that being away from my life’s distractions was exactly what I needed, even when I was waking up at 6am everyday, not exactly doing what I wanted to do. But doing just that cleared my head. Not only did I room with a fellow Christian who was strong enough in his faith to converse with me about it, but he even was encouraging me in my walk. I read one of his books from the Left Behind series and loved it. It was fascinating and regardless of any truth in it, it had me thinking about how I was living my life and bettering the world in preparation of Jesus’ return.

Overall, I had fun for the two weeks and aside from coming back home to find automatic payments for bills were not paid and a cable company trying to screw me, I am off to a good start. Not to mention I picked up a shift at Starbucks last night for extra cash and learned that I’ll probably be shift supervisor soon and my trainer when I arrived, Erin (the Christian), and I are becoming better friends and are starting to witness to some of the people that work there, simply expressing our concern and love for them. So if you are one who reads here and prays, that’d be a great praise report and prayer request!!

Good to be back!

Laying it All Out There

Wednesday, April 23rd, 2008

I’ve thought about this for a while now. Posting something of this caliber out in the open, laying it all out there, for everyone to see. Only until recently did I think it was a good idea and opt to move forward with it.

Be forewarned – this post is long so please take some time to read through it. It is still very real to me and very much a part of my life. I deal with temptation everyday that, up until a few weeks ago, I succumbed to. There may be at times language that is harsh but it serves it’s purpose. My only wish for you is that before, and after, you read this you simply say a prayer for me.

Ask for protection, encouragement, and most importantly that I continue to see God’s light and love for me and recognize Him as the one and only thing to live my life for. I’m hoping to shed God’s light upon a very dark area in my life and, without sending letters to everyone, this is the next best thing to accomplish this.

So now that that is out there…. (more…)

Oh, What a Day

Monday, April 21st, 2008

Finally the best weather on the eastern side of the states has arrived!! For the next 6 months or so, New England will be blessed with some of the most amazing weather I have known and will under go changes in seasons that rival anything mother nature has to dish out.

I had the pleasure of spending the afternoon outside most of the day and truly relaxing during it. I had my windshield fixed around lunch time so it’s only a matter of time before the rocks attack again… Around the time it was finished, Stephen came over to hang out before we went golfing, which to say the least was awesome.

There is very little in the world that I enjoy quite as much as golfing, especially with a friend. It is so relaxing. It also relieves a lot of stress as you use all your strength and coordination to blast the little white suckers as far as possible, which for me isn’t too difficult ;) (by the way, if you live close by or will drive to me, free lessons to anyone who wants them… as long as you buy the balls…)

At some point though, I remember saying (more…)

Teach Me Your Way, O Lord

Saturday, April 19th, 2008

It is so peaceful right now. Birds are chirping, the faint sound of our central air system working can be heard. Coffee is brewing. Sitting on the deck in the morning is one of my favorite rituals, beaten by sitting on the deck at the beach haha. But right now is such a great place to be sitting – relaxing with coffee in hand, apple turnover in other.

Awesome :)

I cleaned out my inbox and came across a text that I sent to my email with a verse attached to it. I remember texting it during Jeff’s (teaching pastor) sermon last week. It really stuck out to me but after going back to it, it really struck me. The verse comes from Psalm 86:11-13. (more…)

Have You Stopped to…

Friday, April 18th, 2008

… blow a dandelion yet this year?

There is something magical, yet childish about blowing the seeds off a dandelion flower. We’ve all done it. We’ve all been amazed and overjoyed because of it. It’s such a simple pleasure isn’t it?

I just got back into reading scripture today for the first time in probably a month. I go through dry spells a lot. Mainly because I am stubborn and think I can handle my life, yet still walk with God, when all I’m really doing is headbutting myself and tiring myself out.

So today, I finally stopped. (more…)

Amazing Grace How Sweet the Sound

Thursday, April 10th, 2008

Found this story while reading a fellow blogger’s post. Pretty amazing story!

Check it out here.

It is certainly an amazing tale of God’s infinite grace upon us and why we should be praising God and living for Him daily.